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there is something about him i just cant explain.
somthing that captivates me completely
its as if he owns my soul,
and i am connected to him for eternity.
its as if he is my life source
and withought him i cannot breathe
its as though i would die
he is not perfect
he is not an angel sent from heaven to rescue me
he is not my savior, my inspiration, or even my friend.
he is nothing, yet he is everything
he is all i know, yet all i want to forget.
he is my hell.
i have been decieved
i have been used and taked for granted
i have been hurt, to the point i am numb
i have drowned in my own tears, and now i am dry
i think about him always.
i want to hate, but i cant
i need to hate, but i wont
i should hate, but i dont
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[09 Oct 2004|09:37pm] |
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Doodes, HEY!
I haven’t written in a long time and I apologize, well no I don’t but you know what I mean. Anyways, so I have been doing good for the last couple of days and such. Here is the recap:
Well, school is okay. English AP is kicking my ass, but I am having fun in it. I have a couple school crushes and these guys are black. HAHA who would have ever thought. All my other classes are okay except French. This lady is a bitch, she needs to retire, and she is just mad because I know what the fuck I am talking about. Hey I know 4 languages shit and French I can almost understand most from context. Its not that hard. She is just fucking aggravating and all my people can agree. The people are cool and such.
Hanging out with the people, well that is going good. I have toned down much. I go to Barnes and Nobles every now and then, sometimes I go to shows (only if Jeremy’s band is playing) then whatever the people want to do. I have found a new place to hang out. It is the Mall of Cortanna.
This is for why I am writing today. I like that mall. It doesn’t have a lot of people and has the coolest store, HOT TOPIC!!! Today I met the most beautiful doode I have seen this year. He is incredibly hott and really nice. I got his number. Haha I am so cool now. He is gorgeous! WHOO HOOO… and ASHLEY he is only 17 so gooo me right?!?!? Haha anyways, I met some of the people that work there are totally awesome I got this chicks number. She is wickedly cool and stuffage. She is black too and you know how I love black people who are into the things I am into. She is really pretty and such. We are going to hang sometime soon. Today in the mall was great, I got earrings and socks. I am getting a trench coat this weekend with my money but I don’t know what else I am going to get. Anyone have suggestions about what to be for Halloween just give them.
I don’t think there is much else to write. Its been a while. I may update more day to day or maybe weekend to weekend or something….
L8r Dayz
Dommi - Dahme
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[26 Sep 2004|05:04pm] |
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hey guys,
i am doing okay.
friends are okay except i am highly pissed at some people at school.
other people okay.
been partying a lot.
well not that much just an adequate amount.
between us the things are okay.
he remains weird.
i think about IT to much
this is weird
i am weird
i dont know what to make of it
one day it will prevail
darkness falls
you know me fair too well
weak in the knees
the CD is just for that one person
haha tis must be the funniest thing
well got to go pack some more stuff for her departure.
the time he has spent here is okay
cant wait till he leaves to get my laptop back and ill talk to you kids then
hope everyone is okay
i am going to go right now
Luv ya,
Dommi - Dahme
been feeling weird and blah
homecoming this week
hope you can come and we will have fun with everyone
i am truly not what you think of me please take my hand and let me show you!
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| ATTENTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
[15 Sep 2004|12:47pm] |
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Hey kids whats up?
Okay so here is the deal. Bobby is in town guess what that means. No internet or fun for me, this bites balls. Not mine but yeah you get the picture. I can go out on the weekends though if I have a ride and you know I can always wing something in cases like this. So if you want to do something just call me or something because I need to be out on the weekends away from them and their little lovely family bonding time.
You guys can email me if you would like I can check that at school and respond. My email is immalosr@myself.com
Things other than this have been going good. I have been talking to a lot of new people as well as the old. Chrissie is back yall and the crime is just beginning yet once again. I have just been chill and everyone chill with me except for the few occasions.
This entry will be kind of long but not really. So in school I found out something wickedly sick. One of the guys I know was put in jail for statutory rape. I was like what the fuck those little girls where chasing after him, maybe someone should have warned him about the whores of East niggerville. Anyways, I have been cool with all my people there though. Ash and Trang are still the same fool that help me through my day with joking and laughing and we just have a fun time all around. Char is there for like the first of the day so I don’t get to see her as much and all the other people are there but they need not be mentioned for the mere purpose of them not reading it. Everything is okay except me taking off days this week just for nothing, but hey as long as I aint missing any work right? Oh and that damn hurricane has us off tomorrow also. This makes me some glad.
Now moving right along, I am at a loss of words already. I will leave you guys my contact information even my number and you guys know when you can call…. ANYTIME of the day or night doesn’t matter and if I am not here just press 1 when the answering machine comes on and it will forward you to my mail box and leave me nice of lots of cool messages please?!
Things between Jonathan and I are okay. He is a cool kid, I don’t care what anyone else has to say about it. A>S>H>L>E>Y! haha no just messing you know I show nothing but the love for you and your radiant eyes. I know he is not perfect but hey he can still be my friend right? Haha anyways I am tired and need some sleep because last night idk what happened but my computer went like uberly gay and I cant explain what it did. I stayed up most of the night trying to figure it out and got somewhere! Well I fixed most of it but HE can fix the rest if he so pleases.
I hope everyone is doing well, especially those missed people out there and all my other lovers and loveys…. Haha keep the gossip alive and I will be okay I hope while the GREAT BOBBY is here… even though this is a bunch of bullshit.
This is Dommi – Dahme telling yall till next time.
If I get to a computer I will try to get online, I might have my laptop back on track so maybe that will help me out and shit. I don’t know. But everyone be cool and don’t let anything get ya down.
Here is my info!
PHONE : (225) 642 – 5391
Or my email addy: immalosr@myself.com
Dommi – Dahme Oh and I have to add char’s version DAHMI! Got anymore just hit me up with them I like this nickname… its better than well some of you know that answer!
*gives you a cookie and hug* good bye for now!
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[11 Sep 2004|08:57pm] |
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Whoa now, so okay kids this is an update for everyone. I am here. I have just been feeling really fucking shitty and blah lately. I know what “you” all are thinking and its not that. It has something to do with me, people, and family.
Well my family is fucking pissing me off to the extreme. So my sisters are going to catechism now and they are all going to church. They tell me every fucking day, “Dominique it would do you some good.” Fuck that shit. I don’t want to do something that I know will just piss me off even more. On the weekends I want to just go out and have fun with my friends is that so much to fucking ask. Do you fucking understand I live in fucking out here because of this family? I want to live in Baton Rouge. My mom is always like I am not your chauffeur. I just tell her well if we didn’t live out here, I wouldn’t always ask you to bring me to meet my fucking friends. Most of them drive; no one wants to come out here. No fucking one wants to drive out here then go out and then have to bring me back home. There was one that did come see me and I am in great appreciation for. Thanks.
I hate this. I fucking hate all this. I hate this more than I hated school last year. Then on top of all of it… guess who comes home!? The fucking prized model of the house. He is staying 2 fucking weeks. I have to get out of here. I know I won’t be able to do shit when he is here. Nothing fucking at all. Ahilya will get me on the weekends but school days nothing anymore. I cant even get on the fucking computer so I will update all I can before and while he is here.
I want to write so much but I am at a loss of words and soon it will begin to sound like repetition.
School this year is quite fine. I am writing a lot more. My book and its chapters are filling. All of my classes are in play, but I have reason to believe that that’s about to take an ugly turn. I have to take AP courses so they have to arrange my whole schedule and teachers schedule around me. I don’t want to have to be the person everyone scrabbles for. I hate that.
I am meeting new people and getting in touch with the old. Whoa a flood of gates swooshing open.
I hate being attention. I don’t want it at all. Somehow I draw it to myself and it draws back. I want to go hide and not be called upon for nothing. I want to be. I don’t want to be anything. I don’t want to think.
I don’t even know anymore. I need to talk to that person but I can’t because things will never be the same. The things one cannot fucking fixed willingly. If it was meant to be fixed don’t you think the other person would feel the same. I don’t want to fight anymore. I want to give in and just let things be as they are, but if I don’t like something aren’t I supposed to change or fix it!? Like I said I don’t know anymore and its just whatever. I am at a new point where its just like ….. ????????? maybe one can answer this.
“I am content but then I am not I am happy but then I am not I am something and then I am nothing.”
its time for something new
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[09 Sep 2004|11:52pm] |
feeling kinda blah now...
it wouldnt last and i should have known!
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| Whoa now! |
[07 Sep 2004|07:20pm] |
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Girl: Slow down. I'm scared.
Guy: No this is fun.
Girl: No its not. Please, its too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
-=Girl hugs him=-
Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on yourself? Its bugging me.
(In the paper the next day):
A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of brake failure.Two people were on it, but only one survived.
*The truth was that halfway down the road,the guy had realized that his brakes broke,but he didn't want to let the girl know.Instead,he had her say she lover him & felt her hug one last time,then had her wear his helmet so that she would live,even though it meant that he would die.
omg and i thought to myself what happens that night that we went out. omg... now i truely am scared of you but yet i cant let go for some reason. and for that same reason you somehow still make me feel good keeping you around. why do i feel like this?!!
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